May 9th, 2014

hide, headache

Yeah, I'm writing about headaches again

I've been paying for yesterday's decision all day today.

I should never let my headaches get so bad. I shouldn't put off taking the Tylenol+codeine. These should be my mantras.

I only slept about 5 hours last night & woke up around 6 with a headache so bad that I couldn't sleep anymore & couldn't really do anything else, either. I don't remember how I passed the next 3 hours, but it was in a headache haze.

I went through a period of a couple hours this afternoon when the headache was barely noticeable, but the rest of the day has been terrible. In writing group this morning, I began writing in response to the prompt, but quickly devolved into writing about pain, because I could barely think through the severe headache.

Tonight I took two Tylenol #4 tablets, and they barely made a dent. Currently, I'm waiting up until 12:50 a.m., when I can take two more Tylenol #4 tablets together, in hopes that I will be able to sleep and not wake up in pain & be up half the night, as I have been before.

The headaches haven't been this bad in weeks. This is what I get for deciding not to take any more pills at the nephrologist's office yesterday. Next time, I will make as many phone calls as necessary to get someone to agree to come and get me, and I will go ahead and take a pill that will make me loopy. It's better than terrible headaches for days afterward.

Yes, days, plural. When I've done this in the past, I ended up taking two Tylenol #4 tablets every 6 hours for two days before the headache really subsided. I'm hoping it's not so bad this time, I'm hoping I'll be able to sleep & the headache will be gone in the morning, but I'm also prepared to take care of myself if that isn't the case.

Next time I take the damn pill.

All day, I've had this old song stuck in my head. It's from Tears For Fears' first album back in the early '80's, and it's the title song: "The Hurting."

God I hope these headaches diminish after the cataract surgeries. Please please please.

Less than 6 days until the first surgery. Please please please.
dreams, insomnia, sleep


I went to CWC as usual this morning, making sure to show up early to clean up the mess I'd left on Tuesday. (I'd left a bunch of tiles lying out on the table to dry, because the paint was very wet & I didn't want to mess them up, but there's an art therapy group there on Friday at 10 & they were going to need the table space, so it would have been rude to just leave my stuff up there.)

I cleaned up my stuff, covered a few painted tiles with a layer of Mod Podge (to seal the paint), then went to my weekly one-on-one meeting with my intern. I was sort of stammering and rambling my way through the first few minutes with her, and my head was hurting & I was still feeling severely codeined, and I suggested maybe I just needed to go home, because I was feeling rotten & disoriented. Unfortunately, I had left some of my stuff stashed up in the art room, and the door was locked until 11. My intern suggested that I could just lie down in our little private meeting room (there's a couch) & rest/sleep until the art room re-opened, then I could get my stuff & go home.

In the end, I fell asleep, then went up to the art room to get my stuff, and Crystal offered to give me a ride home, and I gratefully accepted.

So I was only at CWC for 2 hours, and I spent 1/2 hour of it sitting up on the stairs waiting for the art room to open at 9:30 & another 45 minutes of it dozing on the couch in the private session room waiting for the art room to open again at 11.

I got home & went to bed & fell asleep for 3 hours. Convenient, since I only slept about 5 hours last night before waking up early (again) with a bad headache (again). I got almost nothing done today.

My head is not terrible right now, but it is hurting, but I'm waiting to take a Tylenol #4 after my evening date with Shannon (we generally spend 8:30-9:30 p.m. together, either watching tv or reading aloud). Then I can just go to bed for the night & maybe get a decent night's sleep. That would be nice.

Then tomorrow I could "get some stuff done" (most of what I'm wanting to do is art-related stuff, so it isn't really necessary To Do List sort of stuff, but it's stuff I've been wanting to do — I bought some new paints and such recently, for example, and haven't even gotten to try them yet at all).