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April 1st, 2003

Eye of the Beholder

This morning, on my way into the shower, I found myself in front of the bathroom mirror. I was bending over to rinse my mouth after brushing my teeth, and suddenly I noticed how my stomach looked as I bent over. It didn't used to look like that. My body didn't used to fold that way. Who is that person in the mirror?

I found myself holding a roll of stomach fat in my hand and thinking, "This didn't used to be here!" I found myself entertaining fairly obsessive exercise thoughts about how many hours I could spend at the gym if I really put effort into it. How many pounds I could lose if I just got off my lazy ass.

I felt hideous, and -- at the same time -- pissed at myself for feeling hideous.

I want to see that body in the mirror and love it, instead of seeing rolls of fat. Not there yet, though.

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See? I do so have a sense of humor!

When I was an undergrad, I was taking this "biological anthropology" class (it was about the science behind the development of theories of evolution), and the teacher was just amazing. Best teacher I ever had. His name was Jonathan Karpf. (Unfortunately, he was only a guest lecturer, and wasn't offered a permanent position. Stupid school. I guess he currently teaches at SJSU. If anyone reading this is a student there, take one of his classes. Run ... don't walk.)

Anyway, it was a huge class, in a gigantic lecture hall, but Prof. Karpf had this neat little system set up, where you could sign up to eat lunch with him. Every week, he would have lunch with a group of about 4 students, so that -- over time -- everyone who wanted to would get a chance to actually get to know him a bit. So I did this, and had a great time talking with him over lunch. Really nice guy, and extremely interesting.

At the next class meeting, I got there early (as always) and settled into my seat. Prof. Karpf showed up and began drawing a cell nucleus on the chalk board, including little diagrams of tRNA (which we were studying at the time). He was mostly facing away from us while he drew on the chalkboard, but I kept thinking, "He looks weird. I just had lunch with this guy. Why do I not recognize him?"

He was dressed the same as always, with these funny suspenders. And he has very recognizable hair, extremely curly and balding. I just kept staring at him and trying to figure out what was different. I was only about half-way back in the lecture hall, so I could see him pretty clearly. It was very weird and disconcerting.

So eventually it was time for class to start, and Prof. Karpf started lecturing, same as always. He started talking about tRNA, mostly just summarizing what we'd discussed in the previous lecture. After a couple minutes, he asked if anyone had any questions about the stuff he'd already covered. No one raised a hand. He nodded and turned around to go to his diagrams on the chalkboard, and then someone in the last row spoke up and said really loudly, "I have a question, professor."

We all turned to look, and the person in the last row stood up ... and it was Professor Karpf! WTF? He came walking down to the front of the class and explained that his identical twin brother was in town for a few days, and so he'd thought it would be funny to dress him up and bring him in to fool us.

See? Now that's the kind of prank I actually find amusing. No students were hurt in the making of this prank, but -- almost 15 years later -- I still remember every detail. I still remember the tRNA diagram on the chalkboard. I still chuckle when I remember that moment when he stood up in the back of the class. Everyone was so shocked!

Hee!

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Buffy Thoughts on the Concept of Change

Having some Buffy thoughts, based on two really similar quotes from this season's episodes:
"In the end, we all are who we are, no matter how much we may appear to have changed."
(Giles to Willow, Ep. 7.01, "Lessons")

William: Whatever I was, that's not who I am anymore.
William's mum: Darling ... it's who you'll always be: a limp, sentimental fool.
(Ep. 7.17, "Lies My Parents Told Me")

Thoughts on the nature of Change in the BuffyverseCollapse )

I predict that Shannon will say I think too much about this show. But I like thinking. :)

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