As per my meds doc's recent instructions, I'll be increasing my Zoloft dosage to 50 mg tomorrow morning. He's concerned -- understandably so -- that if we increase the dosage too much or too quickly I'll end up hypomanic again, and the swinging back and forth can lead to deeper and deeper depressions. Right now I don't care much about anything, but at least I'm not hoarding pills or "making plans." I'm just blank.
I haven't done any art in days. The closest I've come is going through magazines and tearing out stuff that looks like it could be useful for collage in the future. When I saw her on Wednesday, my therapist urged me to do some art or writing, but I just haven't been able to pull anything out of myself. There's nothing there. I just look at a piece of paper and I'm empty. I have to feel something in order to do art, and I just don't feel much at all.