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Life is a bowl of cherries? Um … what?

I totally fell apart at Ben & Jerry's with Shannon tonight. I just feel like I've had nearly 2 years of shit, and I never get a good chance to get mty feet under me before the next shit storm hits me.

August 2009 - August 2010: I had terrible, frequent, unpredictable digestive problems. Really really terrible. Eventually, I figured out that egg was causing it, and I was able to control it.

Sometime in 2010: I started noticing an unusual amount of fatigue, unable to comfortably do many of the physical activities that had previously been normal for me. It became gradually worse over the next couple years.

March 2011: Cobweb became ill with kidney disease, and we started giving her daily pills and subcutaneous fluids.

October 2011: My anxiety began to get slowly much and much worse. Over the next 2 years, I gradually withdrew from many activities and commitments: leading writing groups, participating in book groups, literacy tutoring at the library, volunteering at board-and-care, etc. At this time, I also started having noticeable lack of appetite and occasional nausea, which slowly became more frequent and severe.

November 2011: I injured my thumb/wrist and started physical therapy. I couldn't really bike at all, and I had a lot of pain when using my hand.

February 2012: Munchkin became ill with kidney disease, and we started giving her daily pills and subcutaneous fluids.

April 16, 2012: We had Cobweb put to sleep.

August 2012 - October 2012: Contractors tromped in and out of the house nearly constantly as they remodeled our bathroom. This remodel involved almost daily disasters and ended up making me pretty much loathe the contractor in charge of the project.

August 27, 2012: I tripped, fell, and hurt my knee pretty badly, which lasted until around the end of the year. It made walking and biking very painful.

October 21, 2012: Munchkin died traumatically here at home.

October 2012 - February 2013: I had bronchitis off and on, often very severe.

April 2013: My anxiety began to become very bad. I started having trouble being in public places. This continued and worsened dramatically during the next 3 months.

June 2013: I was diagnosed with kidney disease. Anxious weeks were spent awaiting information.

August 21, 2013: I learned I have a cataract in my left eye.

August 22, 2013: I found out that this Babinski Response means very bad stuff for my central nervous system. I'm now once again in the position of anxiously awaiting information.

I'm ready for my break now. I'd like a few months with no significant problems, please. I'm having trouble staying afloat these days.


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Aug. 26th, 2013 10:45 am (UTC)
Aug. 26th, 2013 03:33 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry; it's too much. Hoping you have some smoother sailing ahead, indeed.
Aug. 27th, 2013 04:06 am (UTC)
When my late friend Patti had was going through an awful time, she was volunteering at the AIDS Center somewhere in the East Bay... one day she was talking to a nun that was involved with the center. The nun put her arm around her and said, "Oh Patti dear..."

and then instead of uttering some platitude about God or Jesus, she concluded the sentence with, "What can I say. You've had a shitty year."

I hope things get less shitty soon.
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